Overwhelmed

Yesterday I received my first OPE interview offer from the University of Central Missouri. I spent all day concerned about what to do because you have to apply in order to interview and that means more money for me to spend on a 5th application and more letters of rec. to get. 

I talked to my mom about it, talked to my GHD Liz, I even called up Emily Simon. I talked it in circles with anyone who would listen to me. God bless my staff from now until February 27th because as these things happen, they will be the first ones to hear about it. 

This process is just beginning yet I can already see that it will be the most overwhelming experience of my life. The problem is that no one else can tell me what to do, because everyone's experience is different and no one else is looking for exactly what I am looking for. These big kid decisions that effect my entire life and my future are the scariest decisions I have ever had to make. What if I screw it up? What if I don't interview and thats where I'm supposed to end up? What if I don't get into a program? These are just some of the worries that I have. I am trying my damnedest to be positive throughout this process. I know coming from BGSU is going to help me because they have a well known CSP program and a well known Res. Life department too. And getting an interview offer on December 20th with my documents only being up on the OPE website for 24 hours is very positive as well. 

Despite any worries, I am incredibly excited to see where this goes next!